2/3s there
training has been really different this year. after my failed (i know, i’m still being a drama queen about it) marathon attempt in march, i have taken a really relaxed and completely unorganized approach to training, trying to just enjoy tuning my body after a squishy winter of only running. it’s not at all my style, but has been really enjoyable. i have had rough goals for each week and been relaxed about how i achieve them. and most importantly - not beat myself up about ending slightly off than i started. i have left the computers at home for the most part and just felt my body work.
something else really great happened - my friends all started riding! well, lots of them did. and it’s so nice to have riding buddies. i’m finding more friends to swim and run with too. i’m going through a fun social phase with working out. it’s helped me live in the present rather than constantly shooting for super specific goals each workout, pushing for the end result.
don’t get me wrong, there is a place for that kind of workout and i’ll get back there. i like to be there. but this has been really fun. slowly the computers are coming back out and as the mileage builds more and more, my discipline is increasing. but i’m trying really hard to at least get through this first event before i start accidentally start taking myself too seriously.
my swim isn’t fast, but i’m comfortable that i’ll survive it. and i’m feeling strong on my two wheeler. but my knee/IT band is still plaguing me. and yesterday i strained my groin or hip flexor or whatever connects my leg to…me. it’s not severe, not at all, but it certainly didn’t help my confidence. which is weird. the run doesn’t usually scare me, but it does now. it reminds me to enjoy and relish in my strengths, whatever they are, because they are constantly changing and evolving.
i’m excited for columbia. but, i’m nervous. i suppose the nerves are what lend energy. and ultimately, satisfaction when its all over - but i can’t wait for a time when i feel 100% there.
